DAILY DIARY

5 Oct
2012

Sitting In Silence With Coffee and My Computer

posted by ninahelleny in DAILY DIARY
I am so thankful for my sister this morning. She's visiting from KC & is spending the whole day with Jack. I woke up early. I made a reasonable to-do list but also making sure to include the things that have been weighing on my shoulders.  I've had this strange gut feelings all week. Like I'm forgetting something major. It's a horrible feeling, but today I have the whole day alone to regroup, take a long hot shower, take extra time to round brush my hair dry, eat a healthy lunch and work on a long list of business stuff that needs to be done.

There are still days like today that I'm amazed at my life. Not long ago a "free" day would have included sleeping in, a trip to the nail salon, shopping, drinking limitless amounts of perfect-foam lattes, reading UsWeekly (as if the celebrities were my cousins or closest friends) and eating something extra tasty for lunch. Maybe even a date that night.

I say this all the time but I enjoy my days more now than those days of the past. The days are harder now filled with far more responsibility, but I feel so much more complete. I love my husband dearly and what he brings to my life. My son exceeds my wildest imagination on a daily basis. I have my family close. And even with my closest friends hundreds of miles away, I've never felt closer and more fulfilled in my friendships.

So I have to believe those pounds I feel resting on my neck are temporary things. Things of minimal importance. Things I allow to have weight. I must let go and enjoy the silence in my home, the cool breeze coming through the windows, the smell of baked apples filling the room, and put my love and passion into the work I will do today.
  • http://twitter.com/KTBFerg Katie Ferguson

    I hope a quiet day does the trick for you. I’ve had an unsettled feeling for a few weeks too. I’m not sure if it is pregnancy or just something else. I definitely feel your pain & understand your contentment at the same time. xoxo